I don’t think I’m going out on a limb when I say that most people don’t consider the other parts of the human experience when considering getting their “health” back on track. I believe that to most people, “getting healthy” means getting back into their high school clothes or an elusive size __. They don’t … More The Total Package
When I was at my thinnest, I took pride in refusing second helpings, dinners out, and even cake on my birthday. I wanted my refusal to say, “look how strong I am. I am built on will-power alone. I have no needs at all. I don’t believe in frivolity or even having something special to … More Finding the Sweet Spot
I’ve been a mess lately as far as my eating disorder goes. Half of me wants to get better, wants patience in my pursuit of a healthy body image, and can celebrate with cake on her birthday. She can shrug off the days when monthly bloat causes her skinny jeans to be a bit snug. … More My Two Halves
An irritation of mine? When you hear well-intentioned people say, “love yourself” and “it’s really what’s inside that counts.” Excuse me while I gag. Those messages are beautiful and fluffy, but how the hell are you supposed to do that? How do you embrace (much less, accept) your many flaws when you have magazines, telling … More Let’s Get Real
Last Monday night, I started group therapy (per suggestion of Heidi) and was pleasantly surprised. I’m in a group of 9 women, all of whom seem to be around the same age of me and from all different pasts and issues to work though. Part of the group is that we each “own” our seats, … More Contracting with Myself
I’ve never been one to take pills. I’m actually quite adamant against them- always shell-shocked when television commercials would finally get to the laundry list of side-effects, which, to me, seemed so much worse than the illness to which they were prescribed. I personally think more people pop pills like candy more for the fix … More Dosing Up
Day 5 of the 30 Days of Truth: “Something You Hope to Do in Your Life” Among anything else I could say, any Beauty Pageant answer I could give, I hope to sincerely someday find peace about who I am and my body. I long to wake up someday and not feel instantly anxious about … More Day 5 of 30 DoT: “Goal”
This day is dreary, hardly anything went right (you know the feeling)… it’s been almost one year since the final separation from my ex-husband. Anything I seem to be trying to do today ends with me back in the kitchen, pawing around for something to numb this out with. I can’t listen to any Christmas … More Demons Inside
Quit grimacing, you look just fine this morning. You know, you really don’t give yourself enough credit for all the good you do- for your health, your goals, your career, and all the enriching relationships in your life right now. You’re always on the edge of your seat, waiting for that second when you’ll fail … More Lovingly, Your Reflection
How much time do we spending just eating instead of actually feeding our bodies what they crave, what they really need to repair themselves, and what will sustain us permanently? I don’t know about you, but I barely spent ANY time doing the latter. I’m used to making snap judgements about what may make me … More The Big Difference
Blonde vs The World 