If I could sum up my existence growing up, I would continuously come back to the word “hungry.” When my Dad was at his worst, yelling every day at my brother or my mother for shielding my brother from his wrath, a need for value, acceptance, and a drive to be “full” was all that … More Out of Touch
This day is dreary, hardly anything went right (you know the feeling)… it’s been almost one year since the final separation from my ex-husband. Anything I seem to be trying to do today ends with me back in the kitchen, pawing around for something to numb this out with. I can’t listen to any Christmas … More Demons Inside
Quit grimacing, you look just fine this morning. You know, you really don’t give yourself enough credit for all the good you do- for your health, your goals, your career, and all the enriching relationships in your life right now. You’re always on the edge of your seat, waiting for that second when you’ll fail … More Lovingly, Your Reflection
Hi, friends. Aloha, bonjour, and warm greetings from my computer desk in my nearly-official new residence, Michael’s home. February is when my lease officially finishes, but we’ve been weighing the pros, the cons, and the- “oh, what the hell. You’re already living with me, so let’s move you in and pay off the broken lease … More Turning the Page
Ever since I was little, I knew I didn’t exactly fit into my family. I wasn’t into sports growing up, I wasn’t particularly good in academics, I wasn’t interested in growing up to be a stay-at-home mother, and wasn’t all hyped up for the business world, either. Being the youngest, I felt this unspoken need … More Black Sheep
A few months ago, Michael’s Dad was able to add me to their family gym pass and Michael and I go a few times a week for more cardio outside our weight lifting schedule. I’ve perused the cardio classes and have attended Zumba class there. Zumba is something I’ve done for almost 5 years now; … More Beauty and its Beast
I spent some time this weekend, pondering the differences between intuitive eaters (or, “she/he who eats when physically hungry”) and those suffering from Bulimia or Binge Eating Disorder. Michael and I were driving around town, running errands and buying some home improvement items and the inspiration struck. You can’t control the timing of these things, … More The Vast Comparison
I pride myself and make it a point to be completely translucent with you guys, to keep this blog raw and real and honest. I have good days, bad days, days that feel and look gray, and in the rare occasion, far flung to either extreme. I will never be fluffy like rainbows and ponies … More Inside the Act
I’ve now finished reading my book and am dealing with that nostalgic, sort-of-depressed feeling you get when you find yourself immersed in reading. You mourn that you’ve turned the last page, sigh with sadness as you close the covers, just like you’re ending a beautiful relationship. You don’t want to see it end. Tiny Beautiful … More The Way it Moves
Today, I had an interview at a local Deaf Center for volunteer work. It started out as a course requirement for a college class I’m taking this semester, and blossomed into something I’ll be sticking with for as many years into the future that I can. Back to my high school years. I had three … More Motion of the Hands
Blonde vs The World 