Lessons in Letting Go

“I Don’t Know You Anymore” by Savage Garden

“I would like to visit you for a while
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn’t have called but someone had to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don’t matter
I’ll be courageous if you can pretend that you’ve forgiven me

Because I don’t know you anymore
I don’t recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don’t talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn’t give to see your face again

Springtime in the city
Always such relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold
If you know what I mean
Everyone’s got an agenda, don’t stop
Keep that chin up, you’ll be all right
Can you believe what a year it’s been?
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
‘Cause I don’t know you anymore
I don’t recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don’t talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn’t give to see your face again

I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I’ve paid the price
I’m still paying for it every day

So maybe I shouldn’t have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn’t really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?

Because I don’t know you anymore
I don’t recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don’t talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn’t give to see your face again”

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I don’t know when it’ll stop hurting or when I’ll get over that you’re dating new people. I can’t pretend that it doesn’t suck for me. Something that I’ll keep with me is that I was your first, in all sense of the term. I loved you first. I know how you like to sing in your car, your silly sense of humor and your reoccurring inside jokes and punchlines. I know them all by heart. I know how to make you smile. But I don’t know how to be everything you need anymore. I don’t consider our marriage a “practice” session anymore- it was very much the real thing. Spending those 3.5 years with you was bliss more often than not, even though we both made some huge mistakes along the way. Wishing you well in everything you do. This world is a much better place, simply because you’re here.

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